A person's sphere

Sometimes when I'm chatting with friends (like right now) I wonder about the sphere of influence that I have. Not to say that I think I'm all amazing and stuff... but rather, the crazy places that God has taken me in life... the groups of friends, scattered across the world, whom I've had the privilege to meet.

At some level, a apart of me, the dreamer I suppose, feels that there is definitely a greater purpose to this... that perhaps God has chosen me for some part in the grand design, some key role that allows me to connect people from the corners of the earth... and not in a match making sense, although I hear there's a lot of money in Christian online dating.

I suppose at one level, I might seem like a really confident and forceful person, but anyone who really knows me, would know that I also battle with a LOT of inferiority complexes, possibly because, believe it or not, I have screwed up a lot in my life, especially in the last 5 years. Thus, I often don't realize the effect that I have on people, seriously, until they tell me, or it becomes really obvious. It often DOES surprise me when I hear stories of people who I've encouraged/helped, or groups of friends who were... almost bonded... by my presence... and it's a pattern that repeats in various places... I think that's what surprises me the most =D.

Obviously it feels good to hear those reports... but more than that... I wonder... well A: if I can build a business around it lol, but B: what it means for my destiny... perhaps I will have the opportunity to unite Christianity during the tribulation?? =D Or maybe build a network of churches that actually teach the hard to accept portions of scripture... or maybe even something as crazy as raising my own family in the ways of the Lord... heaven knows you need a lot of bonding there.

Who knows... perhaps God could very well send me to some other place in the world... I really have no idea... and perhaps I'll meet another group of super awesome Christians with whom I'll be able to journey for a short while.

One friend once told me that to him, I was an agent of change... an "impact" guy... I still have no idea what that means, or how it's going to give me a job... but I trust in God, and He's got my back, so what have I to fear?